I think the worst part of being pregnant with the flu has to be that I am still hungry. I know that baby is feasting off of my "maternal reserves" (and I have plenty) which is why I'm losing weight so fast, but I'm still hungry. A bowl of cereal looks good, and right now spaghetti sounds delightful. I may try the spaghetti later, Dr. King said I should be feeling tons better. And I am, it's just that eating is hard on a weak stomach, ya know?

I forgot to say that we heard a much stronger (stronger=louder, obviously cause babys getting bigger!) heartbeat at the doctors office. Whoosh whoosh whoosh whoosh. Baby must have been asleep to stay so still! :) She says baby sounds great and is tougher than we think. I just love my doctor. She is so awesome! Okay sick or not sick, I must get laundry done. You know it's bad when Erich asks me to do laundry. I'm usually much more on top of it! :)

I have the flu and I've lost another pound and a half.

Well, plans changed. They had me go ahead and come into the office to get a shot of nausea medicine (I refused to go back to the hospital) and told me to go home, lay down, and try eating clear liquids. So after the shot I came home and had some beef noodle soup. After I had just finished putting the bowl in the kitchen sink, my stomach cried out "oooo food, go away go away" and the soup listened. At least it was something light and not substantial. I hate puking. My mom is on her way down to go with me to the doctors office at 3. I'm hungry again, I may try eating some more soup in like half an hour or 45 minutes. The way I figure is that even if I puke it up, I may be getting some nutrition. That baby is probably hungry! More later. Hope all of you feel wonderful.

I'm puking again. Dangit. Awful awful puking. I'm tired of feeling awful. :( Boo. They are having me come into the office today at 3. I would have to leave work by 2 I'm wondering if I can make it here until then. At 12 o'clock I'll have been here for four hours, which is counted as a full day of work. I can just tell them I had a doctor appointment (which I do) and that won't be lying. I'm probably close to be laid off with me being on limited duty and sickly this last week or so. Especially since they are "cleaning house." I don't care. There is another great opportunity on the horizon that I will have to tell you about, when I don't feel so stinking awful.

I'm here on vacation. We've made it to Tennessee~ just online to check up on my favorite ladies, then time for dinner. Going to Lexington,KY tonight, then to Cincinnatti tomorrow, we'll be home tomorrow night~ :)

Why does time pass so slowly around here? I had a million things to "finish" here and I've about got them all done. Urgh. I hate work.

OB appointment went well! :) She thinks that I did in fact pass a kidney stone. She thinks the soreness and tenderness will get better over the next couple of days. :) She is glad I was feeling better, and said she was very worried about me because the nurses said I was dry as a bone. :( But I feel better then ever in fact. :) I did lose a pound, but she said she figured I would since everything that I had been through. She found the heartbeat, but he kept moving so we couldn't count it. He kept kicking the doppler, saying " Hey lady, get out of here! I'm trying to do my gymnastics routine!" She said she wasn't worried about counting it since we heard the heartbeat and he was SO active! :)

I just finished lunch, frozen burritos with cheese on top. Yum... I have to gain back the weight I lost says the great OB. So that would mean something like 5 pounds in the next month or so. Since this nausea is gone, I definitely feel up to the challenge! In fact, the South Bend Chocolate Company has a booth set up right now in the cafeteria. I'm thinking chocolate turtles and some fudge. YUM! That will bring that pound back. ;)

After work I must do about 1 million things to get ready for this trip! I was thinking on the way up here how next summer, we'll be getting ready to travel with a 6 month old baby! wow. I think we are planning on trying to go to Mexico to see my Grandma and Grandpa. My mom and stepdad will go to (so Erich and my Stepdad don't feel so shut out by the language barrier!) My Grandma told me she can't wait to see my big fat belly in a picture and then hold her first gringo great grandbaby! :) Only 1/2 gringo though. :) They said they want to meet the giant gringo too! (that would be Erich since he is SO tall! Remember that I'm only 5'2" and my mom 5" and my grandma is something like 4'8"! We Mexicans aren't exactly basketball players!)

Okay I actually have to work now. Boo for work. Love to all.

*can you tell I'm feeling ten million times better?*

Okay, OB appointment this morning at 10:10. Get to hear the heartbeat, always a plus. Maybe she'll tell me of my mysterious side pain that still persists. Though it isn't as bad as it was a few days ago. I think the dehydration intensified everything! It's been an interesting few days let me tell you, but the bonus is that my child is beautiful and healthy. :) Tomorrow we leave on vacation, thank goodness!

I'm back from the hospital. They did the renal ultrasound and such and then sent me to the short stay unit for two bags of IV fluid. yum... I'm feeling a ton better. (oh the gave me nausea medicine) and some tylenol and started feeding me. I was so dry they couldn't stick me which is bad since I'm the best stick this side of Indianapolis. :) Well, more later.. Just wanted to let you know.

I'm headed back to the hospital. They want to do another ultrasound of my kidneys, ureters, and gallbladder. The gall bladder is on the wrong side of the pain but they are worried since a sip of gatorade makes me puke like 4 times. Wish me luck. I'll update later.

Well, I'm alive. I ignored my pain on Monday and went about the day. Tuesday morning I started incontrollably vomiting, not morning sickness vomiting, bad bad bad vomiting. They told me to go straight to the ER because I may have a kidney stone. I was pretty freaked out, went to the ER. No UTI, no infection. THey can't find my ovaries (since my uterus has pushed them up to far laterally) so they don't think there is a cyst. They couldn't see the appendix with the ultrasound machine, but I don't have a surgical belly. I'm still tender and my side still hurts. I haven't eaten anything that has stayed down since Monday night. yuck. I got a small amount of broth down yesterday but not much. When we left the hospital, with a little nausea medicine on board and some for pain, my mom took me to eat. I had a bit of salad, puked, felt SO much better, ate more. On the way home, puked. heh. So that is where I am right now. I have to call the doctor and "follow up" with her. I was going to wait until Thursday for my regular appointment, but I still haven't eaten anything and my appetite is no where to be found and I don't consider this good considering I'm pregnant. I am determined to go on my vacation this weekend though, I need a break!

On the plus side of the trip to the ER, we saw Baby. I sent Erich to work (no use in waiting all day 9am until 5pm where he could do nothing) my mom came with me. This was the first time seeing the heartbeat, hearing the heartbeat, and seeing her first grandbaby. She cried and he waved at her. While we were watching him and trying to get a good picture he did a giant flip in there which was very awesome. My mom kept saying, " Oh wow, I can see him! Oh look that's a good shot, oh oh oh wow! hi baby!" Can you tell this is her first grandbaby? The technician even printed her off her own picture. She says she was taking it straight home to the fridge! My stepbrother and stepsister will probably think it's weird, or cool. Who knows? But it was the highlight of my day (and hers too I think). I was glad she got to see him, and see all the fuss. And it is great to have a picture that looks like a baby. Erich likes that. :) Wow, this is really happening.

Okay so I'm going to have a little poll. Please leave a comment to tell me what you think and then I'll do what ya'll think I should do!

Remember me saying that I have that pain in my side that could possibly be appendix pain? Well, I actually think it might be a UTI. So here is the question... should I call the nurse and tell her today? OR just wait for my doctor appt on Thursday?

What a cool book!

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Wizard of Oz:: there's no place like home...(tap tap tap)
   
2. Ford:: found on the road dead
   
3. Wrinkles:: ruffles have ridges?
   
4. Extravagant:: person
   
5. Conventional:: oven?
   
6. Stewart:: Little
   
7. Offensive:: person
   
8. Heartbeat:: baby
   
9. Chaos:: mass
   
10. Jiffy::pop
    

OH! Ha! Did I mention that I am now 12weeks 2 days pregnant! yay! I made it! I'm an accomplished pregnant person! lol

I think I'm going to have to do a bit of research in the library today. I'm having a major pain right around my appendix (I think.). It isn't a cramp more like a muscle being pulled, but it hurts so bad that when I stand up I can't stand straight unless I push on it and clench my teeth together. Ouch. It also hurts when I empty my bladder, and it hurts when my bladder is full, and... As a matter of fact, it just hurts. I just want to make sure that it is just a muscle and not, ya know, my appendix going bad. Usually those start out with a dull ache and gradually get worse which is kinda what this is doing.

Baseboards... check!
Laundry started.... check!
Laundry finished....
dishes finished....

I'm awesome! :) I've cleaned the LR: dusted and swept, swept the rugs and the chairs, pulled the slipcover off, shook off crumbs and vacuumed dog hair. Gave Ella and Gracy haircuts last weekend so that should end the shedding epidemic for a while. I've also washed all the dishes except for the cups (waiting for the others to dry since they are taking up the counterspace). I'll wash the cups after a few. I need to get laundry going again. I cleaned the carpets in the bedroom in the basement. I just need to wipe the baseboards down again with Ivory soap and I can call the flood disaster done! whoopeee! So much more to do but so much done already! I'm very proud of myself.

I just got back from lunch. Pot roast, green beans, and au gratin potatoes. Yum. Didn't really eat the potatoes and only about half of the green beans, but the pot roast was delightful. The worst part of eating seems to be that the food doesn't go straight to my stomach, it sort of lolly gags around in my esophagus making me feel like a baby that needs burped. **sigh** You know I had this conversation with my mother last night in which I told her my complaints really weren't complaints, but cries for reassurance. To hear someone say, "Yes! That happens to me to!" *thanks Diana* or "I remember that!" My mom says she enjoyed every single pain and discomfort of pregnancy because she was just so excited. This is also the woman that had a one hour labor and didn't feel a thing. She says we are lean mean Mexican breeding machines. ha!

Melissa had her baby. I'm going to go see her after a bit. Her c-section was scheduled for 8am. I heard the Brahms lullabye (which they play every time a baby is born in the hospital) at 9:41. I'm guessing that her c-section didn't go right at 8am. We'll see. Unfortunately I didn't finish her blanket last night. The bobbin ran out of thread and I couldn't figure out how to wind it again so I had to sew that last machine part by hand. All that is left is to stuff it with the quilt batting and put the yarn ties in. I should be able to finish that. She'll be here until Monday or Tuesday anyways, and it isn't like I don't know where she lives!

It rained again last night. All night. Knocked out the power at some point. I clocked in two minutes late, and boy do I hate that. The carpet in the basement is completely dried. I just need to finish steam cleaning them and I'll be happy happy happy. We are going to move the full bed out of the "nursery" and down to the bedroom in the basement. And we'll see if we can put that crib together. Mom wants to see it put together. And since I am 12 weeks tomorrow (yayayayaya! bbye first trimester!) I feel OK doing this. I want to paint to. I want to feel like there is a baby coming because there is, and January isn't that far away. At least I don't think so. Others of you might want to say "Hey stupid! It's just barely August!" But then January will be here before you know it and who will be prepared? Me! Also I don't think I want to paint when it starts to get cold and such. I don't want to do much of anything during the cold. And it always seems that when you paint you are always running out for stuff, more paint, new brush, etc etc etc. And I don't want to be on a ladder when I'm to much bigger. With my coordination these days, if you added in a bigger belly then my beginner belly it would spell out tragedy!

My list of stuff is piling up. I need to do so much! But when I come home from work it seems less important. That really bites. My house needs attention. My mom has been good to bite her tongue. I know though. I know it looks awful, but does everyone know that I am trying!? I really am.

Vacation next week. Woot! We will leave Friday and be back Tuesday but it is getting away from Indiana which I need. We will stay in a Motel for two nights, and that always makes it seem more vacation like! I hope they have swimming pools because I want to swim! We are going to my Nanas house in Tennesee for a day (we can't stay overnight since we will have Ella with us) but she lives on Norris Lake and we will hopefully get out on the boat and also see if Ella can swim! Maybe I should check into doggy life vests! ha! I'll look in a few for some cheap ones. :)

Tonight I am hoping that my mom will go with me to Kokomo, IN to see if I can find some maternity skirts. Yes, I've completely given up. All of my dressier clothes don't fit and none have elastic wastebands. I'm in my potato sack dress now. I just give up. I'm tired of being squished into things and being uncomfortable. And I don't have then $$ to buy another set of larger clothes and then another set of maternity clothes. Just won't work. So that's that. It's all about comfort here and I need elastic panel/waistband relief!

Well, I better get back to killing time at work, no wait that's what I'm doing now. I sure would have enjoyed a second helping of pot roast...

Okay I need some definite reassurance. My whole tummy is a mess of muscle pain, I can't get up, sneeze, cough, or even pee with some muscle hurting. And the round ligament pain that I think is happening hasn't stopped, it continues to pull and twist (maybe not twist but it feels that way). I also feel like someone is stabbing me in the crotch with a knife. So I ask you dear readers, is this normal? And is anyone else experiencing this agony with me?

I'm working on a family tree. Eventually I would like to have enough that I could make it all pretty with calligraphy and such and mount it and hang it in the den with all of the other stuff my father collected over the years. He was really into genealogy, and because of him I can remember back to my great great grandpa without looking it up. I don't know how to add peoples siblings like E's and such so if you have any suggested or helpful advice or links Please let me know! Thanks! I figure this will be a great way for Baby Stauffer to know what a great line he comes from. :)

Here is an article I came across that I thought you would find very interesting! I'm only going to copy out the summary since it's a bunch of medical jargon, and the summary lays it out clearly! :) Enjoy.

Adverse Drug Reactions in Breastfed Infants: Less Than Imagined

Summary: Medication use during breastfeeding shortens the duration of breastfeeding often because of overly cautious information given by healthcare providers. No comprehensive review of the literature on infant adverse reactions from drugs in breastmilk has been published. All published studies and case reports on adverse events in infants caused by medications (excluding drugs of abuse) in breastmilk were identified and analyzed. Of 100 case reports evaluated, none were considered to be "definite" using a standard ranking scale; 47% were "probable" and 53% were "possible." Drugs with central nervous system activity accounted for half of all reports. All 3 reported fatalities involved central nervous system depressants, but each had extenuating circumstances. At least 63% of reported cases were in neonates and 78% were in infants 2 months or younger; only 4% of adverse reactions ocurred in infants older than 6 months of age. Published studies expand on and generally reinforce the analysis of case reports. By taking a few simple precautions in drug selection and considering the infant's age, breastfeeding rarely needs to be discouraged or discontinued when a mother needs drug therapy.

Clinical Pediatrics. 2003;42:325-340.

I'm so tired I don't want to do ANYTHING. It's only 1:40 and I have to be here until 4pm?!?! There is so much to do at home. For accountability I'm going to write it down here:

1: Finish cleaning basement carpets
2: laundry, laundry, laundry, laundry!!!
3: make vet appt for dear sweet Ella
4: sleep
5: take sewing machine to grandmommy (tell her happy birthday to you nitwit)
6: disassemble full bed and take out of "nursery" to basement bedroom when carpet dry (obviously this is an Erich job but still)
7: pay bills
8: get some friggin sleep

there's more but that should do for now, if I can finish that, I'll move on to a new list. **sigh**

July 16. I've been sitting here thinking and thinking and thinking, what is so significant about July 16? IT"S MY GRANDMOTHERS BIRTHDAY! Dangit I'm getting bad at remembering crap. Now what to do for her...

I think I may try to escape the evil clutches of this place early today. I'm completely exhausted. And there is so much to do at home. I think I need to go home, what do you think? And I'm not feeling all that great. Not pukey, just not good. And all those muscle cramps/pulls have caused my hip bones to be incredibly sore. There has to be some sort of shifting going on in there. And my ab muscles are becoming increasingly sore. But it's great ya know, cause I'm pregnant! I know I know you already know this but hey, give me a break, the idea is still sinking in! :)

Isn't it Friday yet?

Wow. I am having major pain generating on my right side that shoots straight down into my crotch. Isn't crampy like but stabbing like. Mild charlie horse like. But it hurts. Ouch. I must go look on internet now to try and figure it out.

Dialog from the house:

Baby in Tummy: "Gee I bet if I rock this boat it will push on that little bag over that that fills with potty"

Mama says to Papa: " Man, I have to go to the batheroom again!"

**drip drip drip**

Baby in Tummy: "That is stinking hiliarious! There wasn't in potty in the little bag! I wonder if I can do it again!?"

and the saga continues...

Crap, crap, crap. Now I am very very very worried that that bean in there isn't there at all. I just read this, and I'm physically about to just sit here and cry my eyes out. I don't know what to do and there is no reassurance. I need a doppler and I need one NOW. Maybe my friend at the local MD office will be able to help me out. But if not, crap, it's going to be a long week.

Unconscious Mutterings

I say.. you think...

1. Natalie:: Nasty Warts (my very good friend Natalie was called this in show choir, it was a play on her last name. poor dear.)
   
2. Concrete:: sidewalk
   
3. AIDS:: epidemic
   
4. Rubber hose:: garden
   
5. Paper clip:: it
   
6. Route 66:: get your kicks...
   
7. Summer camp:: "this one time, at band camp..."
   
8. Coin purse:: grandma
   
9. Orion:: movie
   
10. Instigate::???
    

There's no place like home... There's no place like home (tap tap tap) there's no place like home.........

11 weeks today! I took a look in "your pregnancy week by week" and it shows an actual size of how big the baby is. He's huge! I can't believe that that little speck on a piece of paper has gotten that big! And it is inside of me! Wow. That's wild.

This is stinking hilarious.

Ya know, amazingly I'm feeling pretty good today (POUND ON WOOD!) My headache is a barely noticeable dull thing. The antibiotics must be kicking in and letting all that stuff out of my head because I'm not feeling so "stuffed". And maybe just maybe I'm getting close enough to second trimester that those hormones are calming down a bit and letting the placenta work. Even the light cramping from this morning is gone. I sure hope that kid is alright in there. Does everyone worry about this when they stop feeling sick?

Okay so I fell up the stairs this morning. That's right, I fell UP the stairs. heh. I'm fine really I am. Just mild cramping, no bleeding. Everyone else seemed more worried then me, I called the OB and she said that as long as I wasn't bleeding that I shouldn't worry. The cramping is probably from the stress. Yeah well nobody ever called me graceful.

I swear that the next person who comes up to me and says "Oh you poor thing, you get sick all day? I never once got sick during any of my 15 pregnancies" I will slap. Slap really really really really really really hard. I MEAN IT TOO!

I played with the template on my pregnancy blog. Please tell me what you think.

Why is it that my puppy dog, Ella, has to sleep in between Erich and I at night? I wake up with no covers because she anchors them to the middle of the bed and makes it IMPOSSIBLE to move. If she can't crawl in between us she sprawls across my legs. If she can't do that, she nudges her way up the side of me and sleeps in that little crook your body makes when you lay on your side. She even nudges her head underneath my arm so I have my arms around her. She is dying for my attention lately. She knows whats going on. It breaks my heart, but we are going to have to break her of sleeping in our bed BEFORE the baby gets here. I don't want her to associate baby as being the reason to be kicked out of bed. If she would lay at my feet (not Erichs, his feet hang over the bed since he is 6'4") it would be fine. I want a co-sleeper so I reason my body would cover up the opening to the sleeper. If she would stay at my feet like she used to it would be better but the farther we get in the pregnancy the closer she needs to be near me. I look at her and she loves me so much and I can tell just by her eyes. Is this what it will be like when I look at my baby?

I'm sorry I've just been really out of it lately. Went to the PCP and she diagnosed me with acute sinusitis. No duh. Which the sinus headache makes me dizzy, dizzy makes me puke, puke makes you feel awful, yet I still feel hungry and the cycle starts all over again. The storms have really been a hinder on my mood. Flooding all over around here and lightning that struck the steeple of my church. I didn't think God stroke his own, but it goes to show you. So every time I walk out my door I feel sadness in my heart (my house faces the church and you can see it from my LR window.) Erich says you can't hear the bells in the morning when church would start. It's a mixed blessing, I guess.

The basement is flooded so the carpet is smooshy. I gave in today and bought a deep cleaner since our little green machine just wasn't cutting it. So far I've pulled 2 1/2 gallons of water out of it. If it would freaking stop raining, I'm sure it would dry. It's just damp now so I'm hoping that with the fan running, things will look better in the morning.

I've been so gosh darn tired lately too. It's probably a combination of pregnancy, keeping up with this house, and my sinus cold. Come on second trimester energy. I'm so close to second trimester I can taste it. Yum. 10 weeks 4 days. Double digits. Man does it feel great.

I'm not complaining guys, just feeling a bit under the weather. (no pun intended). I usually enjoy summer storms but when it rains 8 hours every night it just brings awful things all over here. Crops are under rivers and I know that that is going to affect a bunch of my friends parents and such. I live in a small farming community. Crops are a big deal around here.

In brighter news, Rachel and Beanmom sent me books for my birthday. Aren't they the greatest? I think so. :)

With that, even though it is only 8:30, I'm going to go to bed and watch TV and read my new books and hope to stay awake until my very very hot husband comes home. :) Have I mentioned that I love him more than life itself?

Rachel rocks my world. I'll explain later, but right now I'm currently dying from a sinus headache/cold and pregnancy pukiness. Urgh.

I LOST MY POST.

Grab your boob... Latch on.... GO!

It was such a long weekend, and there is tons to tell, but not right now.

These really suck lately, but I'll try my best.

1. Fashion show:: ho
   
2. Boundaries:: lines
   
3. Roadkill:: road rules
   
4. Narcissistic:: flower
   
5. Authority:: rules
   
6. Martini:: olive
   
7. Personality:: "cause you've got..."
   
8. Comfortable:: pants
   
9. Symptom:: morning sickness
   
10. Dating:: sucks
    

It's my BIRTHDAY!!!! And a national holiday rolled into one. :) I always thought the fireworks were for me! My mom said that I came in with a bang, and I'll probably leave with a BOOM! :)

Should I be hoping for a girl?

I really want to rent one of these.

I don't feel good. I spent the morning at the BMV trying to renew my license. Hmph. Then had a heated discussion about finances with Erich. Then drove here to work in the blazing heat of 90 degrees plus humidity. I'm doing a wild goose chase on the internet. I'm tired, I have a headache, and the baked potato I ate is just turning in my stomach. When I get home there is no rest for the weary considering that I have to clean lawn chairs and get the house ready for the 11 people coming over to celebrate MY birthday. Which means I have to clean the house. Urgh. On the bright side, Saturday I will be 10 weeks. Double digits and a quarter of the way done. Thank God.

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Transplanted uterus?

Good news for bloggers.

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
Isn't it ironic... don't you think?

Well, did you all know that my birthday is on Friday? **sings** "Born on the fourth of July..." The anticipation doesn't feel like it is there,though this is a "landmark" birthday for me. Probably the last landmark birthday until I turn 40 which is quite a ways away. But the usual celebration for this type of birthday will not come for me, which is absolutely okay. The reasons are well worth giving up the party. I feel somewhat melancholy though. I'm not quite sure why. I miss my dad too. He would have been so excited about his first grandbaby. And he loved my birthday, the fireworks, the BBQ. Holidays just aren't the same as they used to be unfortunately.

I have been working on a wish list. It can be found here. Most of them are breastfeeding books, I feel the urge to aquire some knowledge. I really want that book "it could happen to you" sounds like entertainment. I need a bit of that these days. :) Now if my supervisor would ever get back so I can go to lunch. I'm huuungrry.

New picture in the fotolog.

I've oddly gotten hooked to Charmed lately.

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Work is extremely boring right now. I've been sitting here fora good two hours doing nothing. Well I've been surfing blogs which is fun but I want time to fly and not creep. Maybe after 12 I'll ask to go home, since that is considered a full day (leaving before four hours or half of your shift is an occurence). I've been working on the baby blankets and m mom was right (something you'll not hear me say often), it has calmed me down a bit. So I'm going to start baby blankets for those I like. :) I just need to sew up the open end of mine and put the yarn ties in it. I need a steel yarn needle though. I started another one and have it completely sewed, it just needs yarn ties, I'll do that tonight. It is for Erich's friend Jason and his wife Krista. I hope it will be a sort of peace offering. She is due in November and HATES me. I won't go into but she hates me for reasons that are none of her business and pertain to my dating Erich and such before we were married. Anyways maybe this peace offering will build a bridge so that Erich and Jason can hang out more regularly. And our kids will be close in age so it would be nice to have playdates and such.

I also need to start Melissa's blanket. She is due any day now with a c-section scheduled on July 18. She is a girl from work and I haven't had the cash to buy her an appropriate gift. I think this will be more personable.

I also want to make blankets for Shana and Rachel. I obviously need to start Rachels next. I'll email her after a bit to see if she has color preferences and such. :) I have a while for Shana's. ;)

I was given a great book but for the love of God I can't remember the name. It's fairly easy reading and goes pretty fast. I think Dawn would enjoy it immensely. I need to email her the name of it.

By the way, my grandmother came over and finally got the old model 15 singer sewing machine to work. She sat right down and said she had one just like that when she was a kid. Showed me the mechanics of that particular bobbin and got it working. Amazing. She said she has been sewing since age 4!

Bargain for that triple bypass surgery.

The next Lorraina Bobbitt?

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Trolling:: stroll
   
2. Profile :: murder
   
3. Tin:: man
   
4. Phenom:: snake?
   
5. Mug shot:: license
   
6. Tubular:: dude
   
7. Six Flags:: ohio
   
8. Pickup:: truck
   
9. Auction:: it
   
10. Astonishing:: times
    

By the way there are new pictures up on my fotolog of Erich and myself, from yesterday and today.

I'm not complaining but... Sleep doesn't seem refreshing anymore. **sigh** I wake up with aching bones, my boobs so sore they hurt just by the change in gravity, and my bladder so sore from being filled up once again. I wake about every 2 hours to go to the batheroom at night. It was bad in the beginning but then got better and now is back to being bad again. Really bad, worse than ever. Poor Erich was waking up everytime I got up for a few days there but him and the dogs have learned to sleep through it. Friday night I was so tired that it must have not woken me up for a while so when I did wake up and realize that I had to go to the batheroom I couldn't even stand up straight. I had to walk stooped over. I guess that little baby is making himself more room in there or something. Sheesh. And if anybody has any suggestions... what can I do for itchy nipples. Really really itchy nipples. I almost feel like walking around in the world just scratching myself, it's getting harder to be "discrete" about it!

This morning though I layed in bed till about twenty minutes ago. I fell in and out of sleep and it seemed to help the nausea. I think the fatigue has been making it a bit worse this past week. I figure I better learn to enjoy sleeping in because in about 6 and 1/2 months it will be a thing of the past. I can' t wait! :) Now back to my sewing...

My mom gave me this sewing machine (remember that I'm Betty Crocker) because I really wanted one. It came from a friend of hers and it is in a sewing cabinet (a very nice oak one) and to heavy and such to lug to her new house besides that my stepdad bought her one of those really really cool new ones with all the neatest stuff on it (and she doesn't use it! ha! go figure!). She said she thought it worked but I haven't had the time to sit down and play with it. She gave me some fabric the other day for me to make a baby blanket. The back side fabric is yellow and the front is moons and stars (yellow and blue). She said I could make a quilt and that it might help me calm down a bit since these have been a rough few weeks. (I also need to make drapes eventually for the nursery but also recover and drape box in the living room and make pillows for the couch and for our bed, did I mention that I am also Martha Stewart?) Anyways this model is EXTREMELY old and I can usually thread newer models after tinkering with them for a few minutes but this is a bit more complicated. So I figured I could probably hop online and find something that would help. The model number is 15. That's right folks. It is the 15th Singer model sewing machine. They have over 200 now! They charge $15 manuals but for this particular it is available as a free download. Like yeah you idiot, if you are too cheap to buy a brand new sewing machine, I doubt you'll buy a manual for a very old machine. I just found that very funny. **sigh** Someone please send my brain back to me!

Okay I'm officially nuts. E's mom called to say she saw the u/s picture yada yada yada. Then she said she had been out at rummage sales all morning and that she had bought like a bathtub, a swing, etc etc etc. I think it's great that she is excited and wants to buy us stuff, but I don't want all used stuff. I know that sounds really snobby but this is our first baby. I want new stuff (which the stuff she bought is stuff that people will buy us in showers anyways). I want new stuff now because I know that this won't be our only baby *God willing* and I want it to be nice and new so that it will last a long time. Is that wrong? It's exciting to think of all the new and pretty things. I could probably handle some second hand stuff from people we knew but these are from random strangers. I don't know where it's been and stuff like that. Now I don't mind hand me down clothes if they are stain ridden and so forth just because they are so expensive and are constant recurring needs, ya know? Am I being totally irrational and hormonal?

And on another note, I don't think it's wise to have all the "big" stuff before I get to 12 weeks. It isn't needed yet and I don't want her to jinx me. I don't think that nurseries or registrys or stuff like that need to be done until the late second trimester. My mom brings us small things, little tiny toys or a pair of socks, but mostly just stuff for me like stretchy pants and rasberry lemonade. I just don't want to go overboard. My gut says that this will last and to sit back and relax, I just don't want to do anything to mess it up, ya know?

Okay I've completely lost my mind probably and you all will think that I'm some silly hormonal pregnant woman sitting at the computer crying my eyes out but this is what goes through my mind. You guys seem to be my only friends right now. Most of my friends are finishing up college and my best friend Phoebe is touring the country speaking at bible camps. I miss her. I need a friend.

Why must nausea wake me up every morning?

I'm not feeling to terrific at all. I don't know if it was something I ate or if it is all the book rearranging or what, but I'm going to barf (again) . Bleh. Maybe I should go home.

"I still hurt real bad with it " and "they never told me nothing"

ROTFLMAO

A hero among all college students.

Wanna adopt a chicken?

oops

Will this stop HIV?

My birthday is in one week! Do you know how young I'll be?

Weird dream last night. I dreamt I was still pregnant but farther along. I could feel the baby kicking ( I thought of him as a him in the dream) and I could feel his little foot. It was way to cool. :)

A quote I'd like to share!

" What's the use of sending a $2 million missle into a $10 tent to hit a camel in the butt?"
--George W. Bush

Here is the latest ultrasound picture!

Sad news here at work. They are laying off a ton of people today. Sad, sad. Go here to learn more.

Messing with the comments section. Please bear with me.

I'm back from the doctor and the baby has gotten so big!! I can hardly believe it. And there his little heart was beating away at 178 beats a minute! Wow. It's finally sinking in. He measures right on schedule at 8 weeks 5 days. :) I'll post the picture when I get home. I'm not feeling to awesome so I may be leaving work early. Bah.

I'm off to see my baby on that cool little sound machine! I've been longing to see his little heart going bumpety bump bump bump since I saw it last Friday. I almost want to be back in surgery in a few weeks so I can regularly check up on him. :) I said almost. Though I do miss the few friends I had like Missy and Melissa. Had lunch with Melissa yesterday and that helps. She is scheduled for her c-section on the 18th but I don't think she will make it that long. She has dropped. He's moved his feet in a completely different angle and her back hurts and she walks like there is a head in between her legs. And she is having tummy troubles. I can't wait till its me.

I have to go shower so I can see my baby. My baby. Sounds so WEIRD! I know I'm a worry wart too. :( I'm kinda scared that the heartbeat won't be there just 6 days later. I know I know that it most likely will, but damn fear plays with you. More later. :)

First off I feel like I'm going to puke. No joke. I ate a baked potato and a cookie and i'm not thinking it was the best idea I've had today. I did however find out that tomorrow I am having ANOTHER ultrasound! Whoopee! :) That excites me I love seeing that heartbeat and I can't wait. It is hotter then hell on a hot summers day here. 90 degrees with at least 50% humidity and a dew point of 70. It's nasty. Gee I love Indiana. :) Storms should fly in tonight bringing a bit of a cold front.

I'm wearing maternity pants. They don't look maternity but they have a bit of extra fabric in the front for growth. I just couldn't stand my pants and my mom said that I looked very uncomfortable so she took me to Target and bought my a pair of khaki capris and jeans (both maternity). The jeans have elasic in the back so they don't look maternity either. I feel pretty dumb wearing them but hell, I'm so comfortable now! **sigh** More exciting library stuff to do. Later.

Am I fat or pregnant? You tell me.

You're a Ruby. You are very outgoing and wild. You
are confident, yet sometimes you go overboard.
You are vibrant and full of life...just like
the color red.


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That's my birthstone! How appropriate. :)

Speaking of losing my mind, I definitely have placenta brain. This morning, I left without my work badge leaving me unable to clock in and to eat lunch, beautiful huh? Last night I took a pizza out of the freezer and unwrapped it to make for Erich's dinner and left it sitting on the counter. Erich came in 20 minutes later to ask me where his dinner was, oops. And (this is the kicker) I ran the washer (yet again) with all the soap and NO LAUNDRY. Man, someone please keep tabs on me!

I'm definitely backlogged on these.

Week 18

1. Suspected:: killer
   
2. Indulgent :: chocolate
   
3. Advertising:: thief
   
4. Represent:: the public
   
5. Ethical :: dilemma
   
6. Witness:: eye
   
7. Triumph:: in Zion?
   
8. Talons:: fangs
   
9. Finals:: poor Erich
   
10. Squeak:: Squauk
    

Week 19

1. Arbitrary:: ??
   
2. Sweatshop :: Martha Stuart
   
3. Cotton ball:: rabbit
   
4. Intimate:: freak
   
5. Forgotten:: words
   
6. Photography:: pictures
   
7. Secretary:: boredom
   
8. Stadium:: football
   
9. Purpose:: greater
   
10. Shoe box:: cards
    

Week 20

1. Tumbler:: drink
   
2. Recital :: piano
   
3. Reform:: society
   
4. Nipple:: cracked
   
5. Jackal:: hyde
   
6. Mailtruck:: newman
   
7. Merchendise:: store
   
8. Comma:: mark
   
9. Erotica:: chocolate??
   
10. Ferment:: oil
    

I have definitely lost my mind, huh?

Yay, she is temporarily out of projects for me so i'm free to surf and blog! whoopee!

I had a dream last night that I've been thinking about all day. I thought I'd share it with you.

It was after the baby was born, there was a fire down the street. Erich and I picked baby up and ran down to see the blaze and make sure people were out, cops called, etc etc etc. It had to be in the middle of the night because I can remember the flames lit up against the midnight blue sky. Baby started to get hungry so Erich told me to nurse her. I remember it had to be really really new to me because I was still a bit nervous about it. I remember looking up after getting the baby to latch on and Erich's friends were there. I said, "shame on you staring. " That's all I really remember.

Oh and the baby was a baby girl. What do you make of that? :)

If I ever come running, screaming into my blog, shouting " I WANT TO BE A LIBRARIAN!!!" Shoot me. Don't hesitate, don't try and talk me out of it, just SHOOT ME! Today I've worked on making sure half of the *** library is in "perfect" order according to the catalog cards. The problem is that a lot of the catalog cards are out of order. And me, being way to good at this, says something and I end up having to fix it. When will I learn to keep my fat mouth shut!? And do you know what torture it is to be ten feet from a computer all day and have things to do so you can't access your email or blogs for fear of losing what could possibly be the MOST limited duty position in the hospital. At least this is better than my "regular" position. 45 minutes to go.

I'm officially on limited duty now. Now lifting, pushing, or pulling above 20 pounds. I'm working in the hospital library which is extremely boring except when I find cool books about pregnancy with neato doctor pictures in them. :) Today I filed catalog cards (which I found errors in and the librarian was impressed, damnit, I may be doing a hell of a lot more of that! eeK!) and I also made sure all the books were in the order of the catalog cards. Now wasn't that exciting?

These arrived! Woot! Now off to fill them out.

Happy Birthday Erich! :) I bless the day you came into my life and hope there won't ever be a day I don't wake up beside you. You are my everything. I praise God and thank you for giving me this little miracle, a little tiny baby, growing inside me. He (or she!) is part of you and part of me. You are forever a part of me and I couldn't think of anyone better to share this miracle with. I love you.

Wanna see my bundle of joy?

I forgot something! Erich is the most wonderful man ever. We had to drive two cars out to the doctors office (long story) anyways when he was pulling out he rolled his window down and yelled out to me, "Suzanne! You're my hero!" **tear** What a day!

There is an alien in my tummy!!!! :) With a beautiful heartbeat of 170 beats a minute. I'm in love. **tear** He's hanging around in there upside down and he moved! She was looking at him and measuring him and his little leg buds were squirming around in there! She said, "Look! There is the heartbeat! :)" Erich just said, " Wow, scary." I myself was bauling hysterically. We have a picture. As soon as Erich hooks up the scanner to this computer I'll scan it in and get an account on Fotolog for you to see my little bundle. Wow. Oh yeah, he measures 7w 6 d (Close, huh, Shana?) which makes our due date January 31, 2004. I can't wait!

My first real pregnancy scare. I had a belly ache last night that made my uterus start cramping uncontrollably and it HURT. I called the OB on call and she said to lay low as long as I wasn't bleeding. I am going in for an ultrasound right now. Please think of us. I'm so terrified that there won't be a heartbeat guys. :( I guess the cramps are somewhat good because it moved up the ultrasound. I'm just scared. I think they are going to put me on limited duty too. A lifting restriction will ship me out of the surgery department, which may be a good thing depending on where they send me. I might need a change of scenery to get me away from the stress in my department. Okay so here we go. I'll update when I get back.

I've officially seen the weirdest search ever. Someone landed on my site after searching google for: +"laundry" +sorority +naked What the hell were they looking for? Neverwho that-- what the hell was I writing about!!

A few quotes:

"There is no finer investment for any community than putting milk into babies." --Winston Churchill

"Children seldom misquote you. They more often repeat word for word what you shouldn't have said." --Mae Maloo

"Pregnancy defined is: Getting company inside one's skin." -- Maggie Scarf

"Childbirth is more admirable than conqest, more amazing than self-defense, and as courageous as either one." -- Gloria Steinem

"Kids really brighten a household. They never turn off the lights." --Ralph Bus

"In their eagerness for their children to acquire skills and to succeed, parents may forget that youngesters need time to think, and privacy in which to do it." --James Cox

"There is only one pretty child in the world, and every mother has it." -- Old English Proverb

oh! oh! I want one of these after the baby is born too! :)

Aww the luxury of having internet at home. :)

My mom bought me some of these. I've had one before and they burn very very clean and smell very good and not overwhelming. She bought me another "snickerdoodle" and "clean linen". My house smells like clean laundry and freshed baked cookies. :)

I want some of these. I know that most everyone knows about the pregnancy but they don't know a due date. I figure it would be a neat way to announce it. :) I just don't want to buy them until I know that a) there is a heartbeat. I know that there probably is (temps are up, feeling pukey, sore boobs still!) but I have the horrible thought pass through my head once in a while. Like Erich says, it's highly unlikely but every mom probably worries about it. And b) I want to make sure there is only one of them! If there are two then obviously we would need the twin cards. :)

Speaking of candles, please light a candle for a good friend of the family, Heather. Heather is a younger lady (say thirties) who has a schoolage daughter. She is a very good friend of my mothers and was maid of honor at my mom and dads wedding. She had a stroke a few days ago, we just found out from her sister at the grocery store. :( I told my mom that the funny thing is a few days ago I had a dream about her. She used to live in the duplex right next door to my moms house (which is now mine and Erichs house). Anyways, I remember when she brought her daughter home and I would always go over to bug her because I loved babies. She used to let me feed her and I just fell in love with the baby. SO I had this dream a few days ago. I was going over to her house to see her baby and I was trying to talk to her but I couldn't understand her. It was completely muffled and babbling and so forth. Currently they say that she has minimal movement in her right side only and she is only able to say words like yes and no and sometimes shake her head. That is so wierd, huh? It really rocked my mom and I. So please light a candle, say a prayer, go hug your babies, maybe just a thought. It could happen to us, ya know? She wasn't old. She's young. Scary. Life is so precious.

I have to run and work on straightening up the house. I'll be back later. :)

OH SWEET JESUS! :) I'm connected to the internet... at home! :) The new computer came today.. a whole day early. I went to set up everything and the modem wouldn't do it. It was the damn ****** modem in the first place, but we have a new computer that is one payment away from being paid off whoo hoo. A new modem, new speakers, new keyboard. We do need a new monitor but it'll will have to wait. **sigh** Now I need to sell the old computer to pay for the new modem and try to get rid of that old modem. Good bye and good riddance you d-link piece 'o crap! Now I have to eat and redownload all my stuff. :)

Sorry about the absence. Things stay the same though. Work sucks, I'm always sick and dizzy, and I have tons to do. I did a whole bunch of laundry then discovered that Erich has poison ivy and carried all the clothes upstairs ( it's all over his arms) so I brought everything back down to the basement and washed it all again with soap and technu (stuff to put on yourself, dogs, and laundry to get the poison ivy oil off) Speaking of poison ivy makes me want to sing the song "poison ivvyyyyyy poiiissson iiivvvy eee ee e e, late at night when your sleeping poison ivy comes a creepin' arrou-oun-ou-ou-ou-ound" :) I actually think I am eight weeks 1day pregnant. I guess we'll see for sure next week at the ultrasound! woo woo! I think we are going to try and ultrasound Melissa tonight at work so maybe I'll get down and we'll see if we can find some heartbeat(s). :) Gotta run dilly-o's . Computer will be here on THURSDAY! I have to figure out how to be at work and at home to sign for the computer --which is more important-computer or work. hmm... probably the computer. :)

I'm feeling a bit better. I've been really sick the past couple of days. It turns out, I'm not eating enough. MAN! I NEVER thought I would hear myself say that! :) I need to be eating every hour (something small like cheese cubes or popsicles) and drinking lemonade and water at least once every two hours trying to EVERY hour. Working makes that difficult though. I need a couple of days off. Maybe I'll call in sometime next week. :) Gotta go home now, baby is hungry AGAIN! :) Made some really great spanish rice and I pour a bunch of salsa on it and I LOVE it. Thank God that stays down, I'd be sad without it. :) Oh and new blog started for family, It isn't much really yet though. I don't want to make this public to them so I figured that a new one would be best. You are welcome to visit it here

Okay so sometimes people really know how to piss me off. I'm so pissed off that I can't even blog about it. Urgh. I hate my job. I should set up a paypal button so that giving, nice, sweet people could donate money to get me out of debt so I could be at home and concentrate on staying pregnant and not stressing myself out by the mean, rude, awful, terrible, horrible people at work. Damn the raging hormones.