For some reason, when I update my page, it does not seem to catch on to blogrolling. For example, if I republish my blog, and then go to Rachels site it does not show that I've updated. Now why the heck is that? Maybe I'll play around with it...

Well the last load of laundry is in the dryer (that is, the last load I am doing this week). The dishes are washed and need to be put away. I mopped the bedroom floor and the nursery! yay me! :) I need to vacuum the area rug in the bedroom and steam clean it. That would be awesome if I could do that tonight, though it requires me carrying the vacuum up the stairs which is a no no. Maybe if Erich gets home in time...

I just finished eating my Whatchamacallit and it was delicious. E and I bought a box of them at Sams Club this last weekend. Sounds a bit drastic, huh? They were only 34 cents a bar, and considering that I don't crave sweets nor do I think they are particularly great at the moment, I didn't see it as a big deal. Most pregnant women I have talked to have said that they crave sweets. Not me. I crave meat and SALT. Man, things aren't salty enough if you ask me. Yes yes yes, I know salt is not good for you or me or baby. But dang, it tastes so GOOD!

So much to tell! Well, my mom came over last night with a gift. **grin** She is so funny! :) I didn't tell her about the fall until after my appt yesterday because I didn't want her to freak out. She is also not fond of my doggies as of late. She constantly yells at Ella when she is over because Ella is always underneath my feet. So I carefully left out the detail that I tripped over Gracy. :) The first thing she said when she walked in the door is, What dog did you trip on? I said I didn't trip on a dog mom. She said I bet you did and your stepfather thinks you did too, so tell me so I can kill the guilty one. Heh. She's a quite to-the-point person, though she would NEVER kill a dog. Okay?

I talked with Erichs grandma and aunt last night (this aunt is in direct care of grandma and is her POA). She is doing fine. My MIL really freaked me out yesterday. She had her facts confused. So here is the run down. Grandma has been in kidney failure for years. About 30 minutes into her dialysis treatment yesterday she told the nurse that she felt funny and that something was wrong, the nurse asked what? and grandma passed out. She did stop breathing but as far as I know her heart did not stop. They took her to the nearest hospital and stablized her, then sent her on to a bigger hospital in Kansas City,MO. The diagnosis seems to be that she is in Congestive Heart Failure. She has a lot of fluid on her so they will be taking her to dialysis daily for a while. Hopefully that will help a lot and they will figure out a plan of treatment. I spoke with her on the phone and she seems to be in good spirits and doing well.

I am definitely feeling baby move. Last night I layed down on the bed to stretch and rolled on to my tummy for just a few to stretch. I felt a definite "thump thump thump." E said that baby is in there hollering "get off of me Mommy!" heh.

I still feel like there is tons of stuff to do around the house but I'm limited in what I can do. :( I can no longer carry clean laundry from the basement to the second floor bedrooms. I have to wait for E to do it. I am also supposed to avoid the stairs and especially avoid carrying things up and down, i.e. vacuum cleaner, etc. I did however get a lot of laundry done and folded and ready to be carried upstairs. It amazes me that one person (E) can generate SO MUCH stinking laundry. I swear I do more of his laundry then my own! I also steam cleaned the upstairs carpet like I have been meaning to do for oh about a month. :)

My FMLA request was denied. GMAC sent us money though which was a blessing from God. I was able to pay off a ton of stuff and get things off of my chest. yippee. The lady that offered me a nanny position will interview with the possible job on Thursday. Lets all keep our fingers crossed. :)

Rachel received her care package in the mail yesterday and I think she liked it. :) I made her a baby blanket, sent her some genuine homegrown Indiana Sweet Corn, 2 kiddie books, and 1 mommy book. :)

Guess I forgot to update after my appt. I'll make this quick because it is about to rain cats and dogs. Lost another 1/2 pound putting me up to losing something like 20.5 pounds thus far. Wowee. Baby is fine (huge sigh of relief) heartbeat is very strong and so loud! My baby is getting much bigger. He did a flop (she had the portable ultrasound machine) and it definitely confirmed that the bubbles and "flops" I'm feeling is baby moving. yay. Went ahead and canceled next weeks appt and set an appt for 4 weeks from today so on Sept 8 we will have an appt and an ultrasound to check cervical length (I had a LEEP this year so part of that organ is gone for good! eeps!) and hopefully baby will confirm that he is a boy and delight his daddy and disappoint his daddys mommy! lol I told her today that I keep thinking it is a boy and I have boy vibes and she whined, " but I want a giirrrllll" I wanted to say "too bad!" but I refrained.

Erichs grandma, who is already in kidney failure, went in this morning for her dialysis. She coded during it. :( They brought her back and she is in the hospital and they finished the dialysis for the day. They think she is in congestive heart failure, so we may be picking up to go to Missouri again. We'll see. More later.

Just call me Grace. Fell down the stairs yesterday. (i hear you all saying "again?") I was carrying laundry and my deaf dog Gracy was sitting on the steps. I didn't realize this and humpty went tumbling down. Cramping all last night so I called OB on call and she said as long as I wasn't bleeding to lay low. So here I am laying low, I'll be headed to the doctors after a bit to check for the heartbeat. I need to start taking better care of myself. I'll update later.

Not sleeping well. Feh. I find I fall asleep for about four hours then wake up on my side that has gone completely numb from shoulder to foot. So I turn to my other side and wake up an hour later in the same condition. I desperately long to sleep on my back which is not suggested and besides that it hurts. I get a funny pressure feeling on my tummy. I really really long to sleep on my tummy too, though that hurts just as much as the back. Maybe it's just the weather or something. It's to early in this pregnancy to have problems sleeping.

Okay so I didn't get that nap. I've taken the kitchen trash outside, vacuumed the main floor and dusted the living room. I think I'll just go hang out in the basement, do laundry and watch TV until it is time to make dinner.

Okay so I vacuumed downstairs, started another load of laundry, washed the dishes. wiped down the all of the kitchen counters sink and stove, made Erich some Kool-Aid (I hate that stuff) and made myself a bowl of soup. Still need to sweep and mop the floor in the kitchen, but first I'm going to eat my soup and take a short nap. Standing in front of the sink just kills my back these days.

Yay! Well we went and ate lunch, but instead of Texas Roadhouse went to Chilis. I would rather of had Texas Roadhouse but hey beggars can't be choosers. (TR didn't open for another 45 minutes and I just couldn't wait that long!) I mailed Rachels box (go me!) and feel very productive just having done that. I bought a new bra (went up an entire cup size, wowee, tell me these things aren't going to get bigger!) and some undies (damn dog keeps eating mine!). We looked at changing tables at a baby superstore and came home to find we had left Gracy out in the rain (oops!). So I gave her a nice warm bath, she feels tons better! Then I've started laundry and caught myself up in the pregnancy journal. I'm going to go vacuum downstairs, start another load and move to the main floor (I'm in the basement now). So moving on...

I'm up. I feel better (felt a bit sick) and I'm headed to the shower. Erich and I are going to eat lunch at Texas Roadhouse in honor of our anniversary tomorrow (one whole year! probably the toughest too!) and run a bunch of errands! :) Then come home to do oodles of stuff we want to get done around the house. I'll post the list in a bit. :)

I've been a very good girl and did all of my errands. :) Now I deserve a nap, right?

Okay here starts my list of stuff to do

ERRANDS

1. cash
2. bank for proof of cleared check
3. to grandmommy's to fax to dumba**** at Sentry
(they owe us a refund for dropping us, they said they hold checks **20** days after clearing so that they get the money before they will pay out, when I got firey with her though, she said if I could send proof she would dispurse the damn check. It's like $200, and I need it.)

AT HOME
oh the damn list is so long i'll do it later. Bah.

So after being throughly drugged from last night, I drove to Erich and we went to see American Wedding. Only Derek and his wife went. We at at Hooters before and made fun of the not-so-hot waitresses. The movie was funny but there was one part that made me start to gag. I had to throw my head in between my legs and wait for Erich to tell me it was over.

I'm really tired this morning. I'm still feeling a bit of the effects of the drugs, and my I can still feel the migraine in my spine. Ouch. I think I am going to leave work early as there are things I need to do. There is a bunch of stuff that needs to be done around the house. I will make a new list here shortly. Blah.

I have to babysit tonight which is good and bad. I wish I could just go home and nap, hopefully after my errands there will be enough time to do that. It is good though 'cause we really need the money.

I think this library should have a cot.

Once again I bend over and take it up the rear. I'm really really sick of life in general. Ug.

Okay so I feel that "narcotic" effect of the vicodin they gave me so I better make this quick before I pass out right here at the keyboard. Went to the doctor and waited in the waiting room about 5 minutes, but waited 20 minutes in the exam room! Sheesh. So I puked in their biohazard bag twice. No I did not do it on purpose, but in my defense you leave a pregnant woman, who just wants some safe for her baby drugs to get rid of the gigantic headache, in a room with florescent lights. She's already told you that she is sick to her stomach and that she probably eat something again soon before she does that "I'm pregnant and haven't eaten" puking. The phenegran is left in her house and not in her purse. Feh. So they should have known. They should feel lucky that I am an experienced pregnant puker and made it to the trash bag, the biohazard one at that, and didn't make a mess. I even pulled the bag out for them, tied it up, and put a new bag in for them. Ha! Years of nursing home aide work makes me not care. They didn't know I puked (unless they heard me hacking) until I stepped out the door, one glove on my hand holding the biohazard bag and said, "um excuse me, where can I throw this away?" heh. At any rate he gave me vicodin informing me it was pregnancy category B after I conveyed my knowledge of the whole pregnancy drug system and sent me on my way. Thank you very much. I came home, filled the prescription, took that and a phenegran and ate take out spaghetti from my favorite local pizza place the Pizza Shack. I feel much better tummy wise and plan to go sleep away this migraine. (and be up in time to go to the movie tonight, I need a good laugh)

So this is how it is. Last night went 6 minutes in the opposite direction of home for a beautiful, glorious Schlotzskys Deli sandwich. It was absolutely divine I tell you. I worked on Rachels blanket and only have about 30 minutes left of work on it. Woot. It is a good thing too, cause that baby is coming soon! (right Rachel?) :)

I hate work, but ya know what's new?

I currently have what is turning in to one of my "bad" migraines. Now when I tell you I have a bad migraine it is the kind where you can hardly move, it hurts to breath, can hardly see, and will only be tamed by ER care. Yuck. So I called the OB to see what she has to say (it has yet to progress to this point, but I know the pattern and routine and it is headed right for the ER, which I've had enough of in this pregnancy.) She said to go see my PCP. PCP is not currently in, but they'll squeeze me in with an associate. Whatever just get me a nice pregnancy class A or B drug that won't cross the barrier of the placenta but will offer some much needed relieft. Gross. I've been lucky since I stopped my migraine prevention meds when I got pregnant--since they were a pregnancy class D, Yipes! , that I've only had a couple of migraines that I have been able to ward off with tylenol a bit of nausea meds and rest. This one isn't going to be like that though. While I'm at the "regular" doctor, do you think he'll have a doppler of some sort to listen to baby? That would be awesome...

Hopefully the plan is that after the doctors appt I'll have beautiful drugs that will take away this hideous beast so that I will be able to go see "American Wedding" with Erich and his best friend Derek, along with Ben and possibly Ryan (all friends of Erich). Ha! Can you see the picture of 4 guys walking into a theatre with an obviously pregnant woman to see American Pie. Cracks me up! :)

In other news, I'll be 15 weeks pregnant. A few months ago, if you remember, I never thought that I would be able to concieve because of my PCOS. I was depressed and down in the dumps and feeling like a failure as a woman and here I am 15 weeks pregnant! I know I know, compared to Rachel who is 39 weeks pregnant I'm not that pregnant but I am starting to look pregnant (and thin!). I'm starting to feel bubbles in my tummy which I believe is probably baby. Wowee. I went up to my department today and they all said that I look fabulous! Everyone wanted to rub my "buddha" belly and were saying how thin I look! Wow. Who'd have thought people would say how thin I was in pregnancy!

My bestest friend Phoebe came to see me for lunch here at work on Tuesday! She was amazed that I've lost about 20 pounds and still have a grown belly! :) It is weird. Theoretically with the weight I have lost, by the end of my pregnancy I should be back at my prepregancy weight. ha! Hopefully with my newly trimmer figure (I look thinner everywhere else except my tummy and a little extra boobage) and with breastfeeding, it will be much easier to lose weight. Man I hope so.

Okay I've rambled enough to pass the time so I can go to the doctor to get drugs. Thank goodness. I feel awful. Bah humbug.

I hate work. They just called me at home to tell me that they are writing me up for the time I missed when I was admitted to the hospital. These stupid pregnancy hormones have me completely upset now. I just want to crawl in a hole...

Crappety crap. I just lost a post due to my own stupidity. Anyways I didn't finish the earlier post like I was supposed to so here goes. Last night on my way home from work I was weirded out by getting motion sickness while I was driving! This was later fended away though by a weird craving for Scholtzkys Deli, which still lingers. The closest one to my house is about 15 minutes north, but a quick search a few minutes ago showed that there is one about 6 minutes from work! Woot! Now I should probably call Erich and see if I can get a sandwich using my Paypal Debit/CC which we earn money from everytime we use it. Anywho, met with the agent from Erie Insurance this morning. I told him that I had done some research on the company (cause he asked, since I wasn't familiar with it) and also mentioned that I had also asked my stepfather about it since he sells insurance too. (He just joined farm bureau and is in training, but afterwards he says that he is going to take care of us and even give an discount that comes directly out of his commission, isn't he sweet?) My stepfather said that Erie has a reputation for being a "one claim and you're out" kind of company. The agent denied it (as my stepdad and I both agreed he would) and said he had several customers who had filed claims and not been dropped. Heh. Anyhow, I rattled his feathers kinda like I had intended to just to see how he handled the situation. IMHO he handled it well, though I could still tell it sorta perturbed him.

I'm at work. It hasn't been so bad today. She had me print off the entire alphabet off of this site for a doctor who says that he does indeed have logolepsy: an obsession with words. It was close to 700 pages and it took up most of the morning. I ate a big lunch of stuffed shells and cantaloupe and strawberries. It made me feel great. I've also been munching continuously throughout the day which has also helped my stomach! This afternoon I created a resume for a lady using Resume Deluxe. If only I could somehow make some money doing resumes for people and typing papers/documents/etc. How would I even go about that though?

I've also been working on my FMLA (Family Medical Leave Act) status. It's basically to cover my butt for the absences when I was in the hospital and for future days when I just don't feel like coming into work. Hmph. I will be quitting though before I should require Maternity Leave. I'm not coming back to this hellhole. It just isn't cost effective for us to pay for daycare and gas for me to come to work for eight hours a day just to make like $50 in the end. Thank you very much I'll stay home with my baby. (Unless I get that job as a nanny I talked about a few days ago! Cross your fingers!) Well that's all for now...

Well, there is a new picture up of me and Erich and "the belly." :) You can see it here. Of course he made it look better after I left by cropping it and turning it into black and white. Bah. I'll order some prints of the pics off of Shutterfly tonight. There is a cute one of Ella and me on the couch too! Must finish this post in five minutes... brb

I guess I have neglected to write about the "great insurance stink" which I have to come to refer to it. So here goes. Remember back in February when that awful lady hit the truck while we were in the house ? Well, we filed an uninsured motorist claim with Geico, our insurance carrier at the time, to pay for the damage. Because that is why we have insurance, right? To cover accidents. Anyways. We were unhappy, both coming from smaller towns, to have to deal with a big giant like Geico. Never did we speak to the same person on the phone, each time we would have to explain the entire situation over and rattle off numerous numbers, dates, times, places, etc. The insurance carriers I had had "growing up" never put me through this. They knew me by name and if something happened they took care of it. I hardly ever had to follow up because they called me before I could call them. Anyways. We weren't terribly thrilled with Geico. So in May we closed on our house and purchased home insurance through Sentry. We were then told, as most are, that if we moved our car insurance to Sentry that it would be cheaper for both home and auto. So we did with the fact that it was cheaper and that we would have an agent who, in theory, would be more readily available to help us! woot! So we switch over, then trade in the truck for the Vibe. When I call to switch over the vehicle I want to know the difference in insuring the vehicles, as most would, right? Well, the agent promises me he will call back, does he, nope. When we ask him what form of contact is better, phone or email, he says cell phone and email. So Erich and I start this wild soap opera of emailing and phoning this guy. To make a long story short, the dude pissed me off by not returning phone calls or emails and lying to me directly on one of the few occasions I was able to reach him. I'm mad and ready to switch (even though it is tons of hassle) but we agree to talk to his manager and see if another agent is a better "fit". So we go on vacation and leave our great insurance stink soap opera behind. We come home, for me to find a letter from Sentry saying they are dropping us as of 08/07/03 because of the accident in February. You remember, right? The one in which it was not our fault and WE WEREN'T EVEN IN THE CAR? I mean, this is why I dutifully right those check for large sums of money every six months, right? To leave worries behind, have peace of mind that if some idiot hits me I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR THE DAMAGE! Anyways I'm mad so I call my lovely agent, does he call me back? NO! It is now a week and half since I left the message for him to call me IMMEDIATELY. Urgh. So E and hop into a very speeded up process of finding insurance to cover our a** before 08/07 (Thursday). I have since found Erie Insurance. The agent I speak with is very cordial to me (doesn't mind if he speaks to me instead of Erich. Sentry agent treated me like I was the **wife** and would rather speak to Erich.) He returns my phone calls, generally within the hour and quoted us at a price of $400 less than Sentry, $600 less than Geico. Sign me up! I meet with him in the morning to give him a check and sign the application and I couldn't be more than thrilled! Also we are checking into home insurance through Erie and through State Farm. I'm done with Sentry. And I'm going to write a nice long complaint letter with my large quantities of time here in the library to the Sentry guy's manager, corporate office, and better business bureau of Indianapolis. I'm one ticked off pregnant woman, let me tell you!

I have that little nerd counter at the bottom of this page. Every time I am looking at my page though it says 1 user. I just looked a minute ago and it said 2! wowee! Someone actually reads this! :)

Dishes are done! Woot! My list is coming along nicely I do believe. Scratching them off one by one. I'm off to do the tub now. Need to put new tile treads down (Erich got the old ones all stained when he stained the deck.) To put the new ones on, the tub must be clean clean clean, and then they have to stay dry overnight!

To Do:

Tub Treads

Look at my cleaning list from Friday! It feels so good to cross stuff off, even if it is just in cyberspace! :) Now I'm off to do dishes...

I'm behind again...


Unconscious Mutterings
Week 25

1. Partner:: love
   
2. Goddess:: child
   
3. Village:: people
   
4. Relationships:: counselor
   
5. Irrational:: behavior
   
6. Volcano: joe vs. the volcan
   
7. Fabulous:: people!
   
8. Unencumbered:: person
   
9. Coyotes:: Ugly
   
10. Fulfilled:: dream
    

Week 26

1. Hook:: captain
   
2. Greg:: t*******
   
3. Sixty:: something
   
4. Breakfast:: yucky
   
5. Dollar:: days
   
6. Unpredictable:moods
   
7. O:: oooooooooo
   
8. Bathing suit:: blues
   
9. Inconsiderate:: jerk
   
10. Marx:: brothers?
    

No cure for cancer? :(

I love my husband and hate my job. Yup, that about sums up my day. More later.

We have a new couch! Well, it's new to us at least. Passed down from my mom, it's a bit nicer (though I went ahead and put my sofa slip on it) and it is lighter (it doesn' thave a sleeper in it). So that's nice. I do dream of the day when I can go buy my very own sofa from the store, to match my house, and not have to cover it up. And I dream of the day I can buy a DR set, but that will be a while. Oh well, back to cleaning!

I have a lot of stuff that needs to get done. I'm going to post on here for accountability. I am not titling this a "to do list" but

Things I'd LIKE to Get Done!

(in no particular order)

1) finish laundry
a) carry upstairs and put away
2) wash dishes
a) put away
3) sweep/vacuum LR, DR, hall, and kitchen
4) mop kitchen
5) mop wood floors on main level
6) sweep upstairs
7) mop "nursery"
8) steam clean carpet upstairs
9) dust LR
10) windex windows
11) finish blankets
a) Mel
b) Rachel




After all of this posting, it is still barey 2:30. I'm going to go nuts!

So other good news on the home front is that my wonderful husband got his review back. He got a 4 out of 5 (they never give 5 out of 5) and received a 5% raise! Thank you Lord!

The lady I regularly babysit for called me on Monday morning to ask me a question. Long story short, she is currently a SAHM. She was offered to interview for a job position with the company she worked with before kids. She would like to take the job as her husband wants to go back to school and concentrate on their "side" business of building $500, 000 houses. She says she wouldn't think of taking the job unless someone she knew and trusted could come and watch their two (fabulously adorable) babies. They instantly thought of me (and why wouldn't they! ha!) and offered to pay me what I make here at the hospital. 40 hours a week, though she would most likely only work 3 days a week after she was "settled." They offered paid vacations, coverage for maternity leave, and offered to help pay for COBRA until the baby was born. What am I, stupid? Of course I'll do it! She interviews with the job on August 14. She says there will probably be a couple of interviews and she expects to start (as long as the situation works for EVERYONE) by the end of September early October. WOOT! Please keep me in your thoughts and hope that she ends up with this job. It would get me out of this hell hole AND I'd be able to continue working WITH my baby after s/he is born, which would be a definite bonus!

Okay so I definitely need to do a bit of catching up. It seems I only whine about how sick I've been, but I'm feeling a ton better. Morning sickness is almost definitely gone (knock on wood.) I look pregnant and feel a bit better. Since the beginning of the pregnancy I've lost 15 pounds! Wow. No wonder people keep telling me I look thinner pregnant! My arms and thighs and even belly look thinner, except for the part of my belly that my uterus is growing in to. Did that make sense? I'll post a picture sometime soon. :)

The trip was a lot of fun though we did a TON of driving. We loved being in our new car though, and it was fun to have Ella, my puppy, with us. We started off Friday by heading to Kansas City, MO to see E's aunt. She took us to a place called the Golden Ox. It was quite pricey (gotta love her for paying!) at about $25 a plate, but it sincerely was an awesome steak. Baby and I quite enjoyed the ENTIRE meal. We headed that night to see his grandma and stay there. I love Nadine to pieces, she speaks her mind and is hilarious! She is in kidney failure and goes to dialysis three times a week, and I was glad to visit with her since she hasn't been well lately.

Saturday we took Nadine for a ride in the car. She doesn't really get out much, just to go to and from dialysis, so she loved it. She showed us her properties. Her husband and her were quite successful and she owns quite a bit of land IMHO. Erich and I have many times discussed how the land will be divided out and such. Obviously Nadine is in this for the long haul, and though quite sick, doesn't show signs of giving up any time soon. And we obviously don't want her to die it's just one of those things that are always in the back of your mind. Anyways, the land would go to his parents and aunt first (we think.) There is some talk of it going straight to us (the grandkids) but who knows! We did go to Sonic that day. I had been craving it but the closest Sonic to Nadines house was a half an hour away, so we had decided (in our telepathic communication) that we wouldn't go and I could just wait till one came along the way, but Nadine piped up that she wanted a cherry limeade (hahaha) so we had to go.

After Sonic, we dropped Nadine off, said our goodbyes and headed to the other Grandmas in Dixon, MO. We were there way before dinner which generally sucks because it is just as boring there as it is here at work. Dinner was fabulous though, I'm not sure if it was just because baby and myself were so hungry or that it actually was good. We had pot roast, baked potatoes, sweet carrots, and green beans from the garden. Not to forget the homeade dinner rolls and three different kinds of pies! We spent that night looking at family trees and discussing girls names. I really like the name Madeline which comes from Magdelana of the bible. There are at least 2 Magdelenas in the family line, so I could win that debate over Madeline, though Magdelena is growing on me now since it has a Spanish flair to it also. Though we are pretty sure in our guts that this is a boy, but we could be wrong! We'll find out in September at 20 weeks!

We left Grandma on Sunday early AM. We ate lunch at Lamberts Cafe : Home of the Throwed Rolls We had a 45 minute wait at 1130am but it was worth it. All you can eat everything. And of course there were throwed rolls from across the room, the first one hit me smack dab in the forehead, priceless huh?

We left Lamberts throughly stuffed and headed to Nashville, TN and checked in to our hotel. We wandered around Nashville and visited the Grand Ole Opry much to my delight. It was big and beautiful and I swore I'd be back to sing there someday, ha!

Monday we left for my Nanas house. She lives on a lake in Sharps Chapel, TN. The lake is Norris Lake. The lake is truly beautiful and a sparkling emerald green. We had time for a boat ride before an evil storm came in and took away our fantasy's of swimming. Ella seemed to enjoy the boat ride though.

That night we headed to Lexington, KY to stay in another motel. Tuesday we took our time getting home and just lazied around. My cousin Matt from CA was in town and visited with us that evening. It was great to get away from home, we just wish we had had more time!

I really, truly hate work. I have to tell you all about a job offer on the horizon that would be oh so wonderful! More on that later. Going to read some more blogs. :)

I've got beef cooking in the crock pot. I will add noodles before I go to bed and we'll have beef and noodles tomorrow. Yum.. my favorite. Is it wrong to eat beef noodles in the morning for breakfast? I think now for dinner, I'm going to make hamburger helper beef stroganoff. Another favorite of mine. It's been at least 12 hours since I have puked last. My appetite is strong, I may take some phenegran right before I eat just in case . Saturday I will be 14 weeks~ yahoo! Maybe I will be one of those lucky duckys who start to feel quickening around 15 weeks. Oh and I just think that Rachel is the coolest most awesomest girlie ever, don't you?

I think the worst part of being pregnant with the flu has to be that I am still hungry. I know that baby is feasting off of my "maternal reserves" (and I have plenty) which is why I'm losing weight so fast, but I'm still hungry. A bowl of cereal looks good, and right now spaghetti sounds delightful. I may try the spaghetti later, Dr. King said I should be feeling tons better. And I am, it's just that eating is hard on a weak stomach, ya know?

I forgot to say that we heard a much stronger (stronger=louder, obviously cause babys getting bigger!) heartbeat at the doctors office. Whoosh whoosh whoosh whoosh. Baby must have been asleep to stay so still! :) She says baby sounds great and is tougher than we think. I just love my doctor. She is so awesome! Okay sick or not sick, I must get laundry done. You know it's bad when Erich asks me to do laundry. I'm usually much more on top of it! :)

I have the flu and I've lost another pound and a half.

Well, plans changed. They had me go ahead and come into the office to get a shot of nausea medicine (I refused to go back to the hospital) and told me to go home, lay down, and try eating clear liquids. So after the shot I came home and had some beef noodle soup. After I had just finished putting the bowl in the kitchen sink, my stomach cried out "oooo food, go away go away" and the soup listened. At least it was something light and not substantial. I hate puking. My mom is on her way down to go with me to the doctors office at 3. I'm hungry again, I may try eating some more soup in like half an hour or 45 minutes. The way I figure is that even if I puke it up, I may be getting some nutrition. That baby is probably hungry! More later. Hope all of you feel wonderful.

I'm puking again. Dangit. Awful awful puking. I'm tired of feeling awful. :( Boo. They are having me come into the office today at 3. I would have to leave work by 2 I'm wondering if I can make it here until then. At 12 o'clock I'll have been here for four hours, which is counted as a full day of work. I can just tell them I had a doctor appointment (which I do) and that won't be lying. I'm probably close to be laid off with me being on limited duty and sickly this last week or so. Especially since they are "cleaning house." I don't care. There is another great opportunity on the horizon that I will have to tell you about, when I don't feel so stinking awful.

I'm here on vacation. We've made it to Tennessee~ just online to check up on my favorite ladies, then time for dinner. Going to Lexington,KY tonight, then to Cincinnatti tomorrow, we'll be home tomorrow night~ :)

Why does time pass so slowly around here? I had a million things to "finish" here and I've about got them all done. Urgh. I hate work.

OB appointment went well! :) She thinks that I did in fact pass a kidney stone. She thinks the soreness and tenderness will get better over the next couple of days. :) She is glad I was feeling better, and said she was very worried about me because the nurses said I was dry as a bone. :( But I feel better then ever in fact. :) I did lose a pound, but she said she figured I would since everything that I had been through. She found the heartbeat, but he kept moving so we couldn't count it. He kept kicking the doppler, saying " Hey lady, get out of here! I'm trying to do my gymnastics routine!" She said she wasn't worried about counting it since we heard the heartbeat and he was SO active! :)

I just finished lunch, frozen burritos with cheese on top. Yum... I have to gain back the weight I lost says the great OB. So that would mean something like 5 pounds in the next month or so. Since this nausea is gone, I definitely feel up to the challenge! In fact, the South Bend Chocolate Company has a booth set up right now in the cafeteria. I'm thinking chocolate turtles and some fudge. YUM! That will bring that pound back. ;)

After work I must do about 1 million things to get ready for this trip! I was thinking on the way up here how next summer, we'll be getting ready to travel with a 6 month old baby! wow. I think we are planning on trying to go to Mexico to see my Grandma and Grandpa. My mom and stepdad will go to (so Erich and my Stepdad don't feel so shut out by the language barrier!) My Grandma told me she can't wait to see my big fat belly in a picture and then hold her first gringo great grandbaby! :) Only 1/2 gringo though. :) They said they want to meet the giant gringo too! (that would be Erich since he is SO tall! Remember that I'm only 5'2" and my mom 5" and my grandma is something like 4'8"! We Mexicans aren't exactly basketball players!)

Okay I actually have to work now. Boo for work. Love to all.

*can you tell I'm feeling ten million times better?*

Okay, OB appointment this morning at 10:10. Get to hear the heartbeat, always a plus. Maybe she'll tell me of my mysterious side pain that still persists. Though it isn't as bad as it was a few days ago. I think the dehydration intensified everything! It's been an interesting few days let me tell you, but the bonus is that my child is beautiful and healthy. :) Tomorrow we leave on vacation, thank goodness!

I'm back from the hospital. They did the renal ultrasound and such and then sent me to the short stay unit for two bags of IV fluid. yum... I'm feeling a ton better. (oh the gave me nausea medicine) and some tylenol and started feeding me. I was so dry they couldn't stick me which is bad since I'm the best stick this side of Indianapolis. :) Well, more later.. Just wanted to let you know.

I'm headed back to the hospital. They want to do another ultrasound of my kidneys, ureters, and gallbladder. The gall bladder is on the wrong side of the pain but they are worried since a sip of gatorade makes me puke like 4 times. Wish me luck. I'll update later.

Well, I'm alive. I ignored my pain on Monday and went about the day. Tuesday morning I started incontrollably vomiting, not morning sickness vomiting, bad bad bad vomiting. They told me to go straight to the ER because I may have a kidney stone. I was pretty freaked out, went to the ER. No UTI, no infection. THey can't find my ovaries (since my uterus has pushed them up to far laterally) so they don't think there is a cyst. They couldn't see the appendix with the ultrasound machine, but I don't have a surgical belly. I'm still tender and my side still hurts. I haven't eaten anything that has stayed down since Monday night. yuck. I got a small amount of broth down yesterday but not much. When we left the hospital, with a little nausea medicine on board and some for pain, my mom took me to eat. I had a bit of salad, puked, felt SO much better, ate more. On the way home, puked. heh. So that is where I am right now. I have to call the doctor and "follow up" with her. I was going to wait until Thursday for my regular appointment, but I still haven't eaten anything and my appetite is no where to be found and I don't consider this good considering I'm pregnant. I am determined to go on my vacation this weekend though, I need a break!

On the plus side of the trip to the ER, we saw Baby. I sent Erich to work (no use in waiting all day 9am until 5pm where he could do nothing) my mom came with me. This was the first time seeing the heartbeat, hearing the heartbeat, and seeing her first grandbaby. She cried and he waved at her. While we were watching him and trying to get a good picture he did a giant flip in there which was very awesome. My mom kept saying, " Oh wow, I can see him! Oh look that's a good shot, oh oh oh wow! hi baby!" Can you tell this is her first grandbaby? The technician even printed her off her own picture. She says she was taking it straight home to the fridge! My stepbrother and stepsister will probably think it's weird, or cool. Who knows? But it was the highlight of my day (and hers too I think). I was glad she got to see him, and see all the fuss. And it is great to have a picture that looks like a baby. Erich likes that. :) Wow, this is really happening.

Okay so I'm going to have a little poll. Please leave a comment to tell me what you think and then I'll do what ya'll think I should do!

Remember me saying that I have that pain in my side that could possibly be appendix pain? Well, I actually think it might be a UTI. So here is the question... should I call the nurse and tell her today? OR just wait for my doctor appt on Thursday?

What a cool book!

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Wizard of Oz:: there's no place like home...(tap tap tap)
   
2. Ford:: found on the road dead
   
3. Wrinkles:: ruffles have ridges?
   
4. Extravagant:: person
   
5. Conventional:: oven?
   
6. Stewart:: Little
   
7. Offensive:: person
   
8. Heartbeat:: baby
   
9. Chaos:: mass
   
10. Jiffy::pop
    

OH! Ha! Did I mention that I am now 12weeks 2 days pregnant! yay! I made it! I'm an accomplished pregnant person! lol

I think I'm going to have to do a bit of research in the library today. I'm having a major pain right around my appendix (I think.). It isn't a cramp more like a muscle being pulled, but it hurts so bad that when I stand up I can't stand straight unless I push on it and clench my teeth together. Ouch. It also hurts when I empty my bladder, and it hurts when my bladder is full, and... As a matter of fact, it just hurts. I just want to make sure that it is just a muscle and not, ya know, my appendix going bad. Usually those start out with a dull ache and gradually get worse which is kinda what this is doing.

Baseboards... check!
Laundry started.... check!
Laundry finished....
dishes finished....

I'm awesome! :) I've cleaned the LR: dusted and swept, swept the rugs and the chairs, pulled the slipcover off, shook off crumbs and vacuumed dog hair. Gave Ella and Gracy haircuts last weekend so that should end the shedding epidemic for a while. I've also washed all the dishes except for the cups (waiting for the others to dry since they are taking up the counterspace). I'll wash the cups after a few. I need to get laundry going again. I cleaned the carpets in the bedroom in the basement. I just need to wipe the baseboards down again with Ivory soap and I can call the flood disaster done! whoopeee! So much more to do but so much done already! I'm very proud of myself.

I just got back from lunch. Pot roast, green beans, and au gratin potatoes. Yum. Didn't really eat the potatoes and only about half of the green beans, but the pot roast was delightful. The worst part of eating seems to be that the food doesn't go straight to my stomach, it sort of lolly gags around in my esophagus making me feel like a baby that needs burped. **sigh** You know I had this conversation with my mother last night in which I told her my complaints really weren't complaints, but cries for reassurance. To hear someone say, "Yes! That happens to me to!" *thanks Diana* or "I remember that!" My mom says she enjoyed every single pain and discomfort of pregnancy because she was just so excited. This is also the woman that had a one hour labor and didn't feel a thing. She says we are lean mean Mexican breeding machines. ha!

Melissa had her baby. I'm going to go see her after a bit. Her c-section was scheduled for 8am. I heard the Brahms lullabye (which they play every time a baby is born in the hospital) at 9:41. I'm guessing that her c-section didn't go right at 8am. We'll see. Unfortunately I didn't finish her blanket last night. The bobbin ran out of thread and I couldn't figure out how to wind it again so I had to sew that last machine part by hand. All that is left is to stuff it with the quilt batting and put the yarn ties in. I should be able to finish that. She'll be here until Monday or Tuesday anyways, and it isn't like I don't know where she lives!

It rained again last night. All night. Knocked out the power at some point. I clocked in two minutes late, and boy do I hate that. The carpet in the basement is completely dried. I just need to finish steam cleaning them and I'll be happy happy happy. We are going to move the full bed out of the "nursery" and down to the bedroom in the basement. And we'll see if we can put that crib together. Mom wants to see it put together. And since I am 12 weeks tomorrow (yayayayaya! bbye first trimester!) I feel OK doing this. I want to paint to. I want to feel like there is a baby coming because there is, and January isn't that far away. At least I don't think so. Others of you might want to say "Hey stupid! It's just barely August!" But then January will be here before you know it and who will be prepared? Me! Also I don't think I want to paint when it starts to get cold and such. I don't want to do much of anything during the cold. And it always seems that when you paint you are always running out for stuff, more paint, new brush, etc etc etc. And I don't want to be on a ladder when I'm to much bigger. With my coordination these days, if you added in a bigger belly then my beginner belly it would spell out tragedy!

My list of stuff is piling up. I need to do so much! But when I come home from work it seems less important. That really bites. My house needs attention. My mom has been good to bite her tongue. I know though. I know it looks awful, but does everyone know that I am trying!? I really am.

Vacation next week. Woot! We will leave Friday and be back Tuesday but it is getting away from Indiana which I need. We will stay in a Motel for two nights, and that always makes it seem more vacation like! I hope they have swimming pools because I want to swim! We are going to my Nanas house in Tennesee for a day (we can't stay overnight since we will have Ella with us) but she lives on Norris Lake and we will hopefully get out on the boat and also see if Ella can swim! Maybe I should check into doggy life vests! ha! I'll look in a few for some cheap ones. :)

Tonight I am hoping that my mom will go with me to Kokomo, IN to see if I can find some maternity skirts. Yes, I've completely given up. All of my dressier clothes don't fit and none have elastic wastebands. I'm in my potato sack dress now. I just give up. I'm tired of being squished into things and being uncomfortable. And I don't have then $$ to buy another set of larger clothes and then another set of maternity clothes. Just won't work. So that's that. It's all about comfort here and I need elastic panel/waistband relief!

Well, I better get back to killing time at work, no wait that's what I'm doing now. I sure would have enjoyed a second helping of pot roast...

Okay I need some definite reassurance. My whole tummy is a mess of muscle pain, I can't get up, sneeze, cough, or even pee with some muscle hurting. And the round ligament pain that I think is happening hasn't stopped, it continues to pull and twist (maybe not twist but it feels that way). I also feel like someone is stabbing me in the crotch with a knife. So I ask you dear readers, is this normal? And is anyone else experiencing this agony with me?

I'm working on a family tree. Eventually I would like to have enough that I could make it all pretty with calligraphy and such and mount it and hang it in the den with all of the other stuff my father collected over the years. He was really into genealogy, and because of him I can remember back to my great great grandpa without looking it up. I don't know how to add peoples siblings like E's and such so if you have any suggested or helpful advice or links Please let me know! Thanks! I figure this will be a great way for Baby Stauffer to know what a great line he comes from. :)

Here is an article I came across that I thought you would find very interesting! I'm only going to copy out the summary since it's a bunch of medical jargon, and the summary lays it out clearly! :) Enjoy.

Adverse Drug Reactions in Breastfed Infants: Less Than Imagined

Summary: Medication use during breastfeeding shortens the duration of breastfeeding often because of overly cautious information given by healthcare providers. No comprehensive review of the literature on infant adverse reactions from drugs in breastmilk has been published. All published studies and case reports on adverse events in infants caused by medications (excluding drugs of abuse) in breastmilk were identified and analyzed. Of 100 case reports evaluated, none were considered to be "definite" using a standard ranking scale; 47% were "probable" and 53% were "possible." Drugs with central nervous system activity accounted for half of all reports. All 3 reported fatalities involved central nervous system depressants, but each had extenuating circumstances. At least 63% of reported cases were in neonates and 78% were in infants 2 months or younger; only 4% of adverse reactions ocurred in infants older than 6 months of age. Published studies expand on and generally reinforce the analysis of case reports. By taking a few simple precautions in drug selection and considering the infant's age, breastfeeding rarely needs to be discouraged or discontinued when a mother needs drug therapy.

Clinical Pediatrics. 2003;42:325-340.

I'm so tired I don't want to do ANYTHING. It's only 1:40 and I have to be here until 4pm?!?! There is so much to do at home. For accountability I'm going to write it down here:

1: Finish cleaning basement carpets
2: laundry, laundry, laundry, laundry!!!
3: make vet appt for dear sweet Ella
4: sleep
5: take sewing machine to grandmommy (tell her happy birthday to you nitwit)
6: disassemble full bed and take out of "nursery" to basement bedroom when carpet dry (obviously this is an Erich job but still)
7: pay bills
8: get some friggin sleep

there's more but that should do for now, if I can finish that, I'll move on to a new list. **sigh**

July 16. I've been sitting here thinking and thinking and thinking, what is so significant about July 16? IT"S MY GRANDMOTHERS BIRTHDAY! Dangit I'm getting bad at remembering crap. Now what to do for her...

I think I may try to escape the evil clutches of this place early today. I'm completely exhausted. And there is so much to do at home. I think I need to go home, what do you think? And I'm not feeling all that great. Not pukey, just not good. And all those muscle cramps/pulls have caused my hip bones to be incredibly sore. There has to be some sort of shifting going on in there. And my ab muscles are becoming increasingly sore. But it's great ya know, cause I'm pregnant! I know I know you already know this but hey, give me a break, the idea is still sinking in! :)

Isn't it Friday yet?

Wow. I am having major pain generating on my right side that shoots straight down into my crotch. Isn't crampy like but stabbing like. Mild charlie horse like. But it hurts. Ouch. I must go look on internet now to try and figure it out.

Dialog from the house:

Baby in Tummy: "Gee I bet if I rock this boat it will push on that little bag over that that fills with potty"

Mama says to Papa: " Man, I have to go to the batheroom again!"

**drip drip drip**

Baby in Tummy: "That is stinking hiliarious! There wasn't in potty in the little bag! I wonder if I can do it again!?"

and the saga continues...

Crap, crap, crap. Now I am very very very worried that that bean in there isn't there at all. I just read this, and I'm physically about to just sit here and cry my eyes out. I don't know what to do and there is no reassurance. I need a doppler and I need one NOW. Maybe my friend at the local MD office will be able to help me out. But if not, crap, it's going to be a long week.

Unconscious Mutterings

I say.. you think...

1. Natalie:: Nasty Warts (my very good friend Natalie was called this in show choir, it was a play on her last name. poor dear.)
   
2. Concrete:: sidewalk
   
3. AIDS:: epidemic
   
4. Rubber hose:: garden
   
5. Paper clip:: it
   
6. Route 66:: get your kicks...
   
7. Summer camp:: "this one time, at band camp..."
   
8. Coin purse:: grandma
   
9. Orion:: movie
   
10. Instigate::???
    

There's no place like home... There's no place like home (tap tap tap) there's no place like home.........

11 weeks today! I took a look in "your pregnancy week by week" and it shows an actual size of how big the baby is. He's huge! I can't believe that that little speck on a piece of paper has gotten that big! And it is inside of me! Wow. That's wild.

This is stinking hilarious.

Ya know, amazingly I'm feeling pretty good today (POUND ON WOOD!) My headache is a barely noticeable dull thing. The antibiotics must be kicking in and letting all that stuff out of my head because I'm not feeling so "stuffed". And maybe just maybe I'm getting close enough to second trimester that those hormones are calming down a bit and letting the placenta work. Even the light cramping from this morning is gone. I sure hope that kid is alright in there. Does everyone worry about this when they stop feeling sick?

Okay so I fell up the stairs this morning. That's right, I fell UP the stairs. heh. I'm fine really I am. Just mild cramping, no bleeding. Everyone else seemed more worried then me, I called the OB and she said that as long as I wasn't bleeding that I shouldn't worry. The cramping is probably from the stress. Yeah well nobody ever called me graceful.

I swear that the next person who comes up to me and says "Oh you poor thing, you get sick all day? I never once got sick during any of my 15 pregnancies" I will slap. Slap really really really really really really hard. I MEAN IT TOO!

I played with the template on my pregnancy blog. Please tell me what you think.

Why is it that my puppy dog, Ella, has to sleep in between Erich and I at night? I wake up with no covers because she anchors them to the middle of the bed and makes it IMPOSSIBLE to move. If she can't crawl in between us she sprawls across my legs. If she can't do that, she nudges her way up the side of me and sleeps in that little crook your body makes when you lay on your side. She even nudges her head underneath my arm so I have my arms around her. She is dying for my attention lately. She knows whats going on. It breaks my heart, but we are going to have to break her of sleeping in our bed BEFORE the baby gets here. I don't want her to associate baby as being the reason to be kicked out of bed. If she would lay at my feet (not Erichs, his feet hang over the bed since he is 6'4") it would be fine. I want a co-sleeper so I reason my body would cover up the opening to the sleeper. If she would stay at my feet like she used to it would be better but the farther we get in the pregnancy the closer she needs to be near me. I look at her and she loves me so much and I can tell just by her eyes. Is this what it will be like when I look at my baby?

I'm sorry I've just been really out of it lately. Went to the PCP and she diagnosed me with acute sinusitis. No duh. Which the sinus headache makes me dizzy, dizzy makes me puke, puke makes you feel awful, yet I still feel hungry and the cycle starts all over again. The storms have really been a hinder on my mood. Flooding all over around here and lightning that struck the steeple of my church. I didn't think God stroke his own, but it goes to show you. So every time I walk out my door I feel sadness in my heart (my house faces the church and you can see it from my LR window.) Erich says you can't hear the bells in the morning when church would start. It's a mixed blessing, I guess.

The basement is flooded so the carpet is smooshy. I gave in today and bought a deep cleaner since our little green machine just wasn't cutting it. So far I've pulled 2 1/2 gallons of water out of it. If it would freaking stop raining, I'm sure it would dry. It's just damp now so I'm hoping that with the fan running, things will look better in the morning.

I've been so gosh darn tired lately too. It's probably a combination of pregnancy, keeping up with this house, and my sinus cold. Come on second trimester energy. I'm so close to second trimester I can taste it. Yum. 10 weeks 4 days. Double digits. Man does it feel great.

I'm not complaining guys, just feeling a bit under the weather. (no pun intended). I usually enjoy summer storms but when it rains 8 hours every night it just brings awful things all over here. Crops are under rivers and I know that that is going to affect a bunch of my friends parents and such. I live in a small farming community. Crops are a big deal around here.

In brighter news, Rachel and Beanmom sent me books for my birthday. Aren't they the greatest? I think so. :)

With that, even though it is only 8:30, I'm going to go to bed and watch TV and read my new books and hope to stay awake until my very very hot husband comes home. :) Have I mentioned that I love him more than life itself?

Rachel rocks my world. I'll explain later, but right now I'm currently dying from a sinus headache/cold and pregnancy pukiness. Urgh.

I LOST MY POST.

Grab your boob... Latch on.... GO!

It was such a long weekend, and there is tons to tell, but not right now.

These really suck lately, but I'll try my best.

1. Fashion show:: ho
   
2. Boundaries:: lines
   
3. Roadkill:: road rules
   
4. Narcissistic:: flower
   
5. Authority:: rules
   
6. Martini:: olive
   
7. Personality:: "cause you've got..."
   
8. Comfortable:: pants
   
9. Symptom:: morning sickness
   
10. Dating:: sucks
    

It's my BIRTHDAY!!!! And a national holiday rolled into one. :) I always thought the fireworks were for me! My mom said that I came in with a bang, and I'll probably leave with a BOOM! :)

Should I be hoping for a girl?

I really want to rent one of these.

I don't feel good. I spent the morning at the BMV trying to renew my license. Hmph. Then had a heated discussion about finances with Erich. Then drove here to work in the blazing heat of 90 degrees plus humidity. I'm doing a wild goose chase on the internet. I'm tired, I have a headache, and the baked potato I ate is just turning in my stomach. When I get home there is no rest for the weary considering that I have to clean lawn chairs and get the house ready for the 11 people coming over to celebrate MY birthday. Which means I have to clean the house. Urgh. On the bright side, Saturday I will be 10 weeks. Double digits and a quarter of the way done. Thank God.

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Transplanted uterus?

Good news for bloggers.

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
Isn't it ironic... don't you think?

Well, did you all know that my birthday is on Friday? **sings** "Born on the fourth of July..." The anticipation doesn't feel like it is there,though this is a "landmark" birthday for me. Probably the last landmark birthday until I turn 40 which is quite a ways away. But the usual celebration for this type of birthday will not come for me, which is absolutely okay. The reasons are well worth giving up the party. I feel somewhat melancholy though. I'm not quite sure why. I miss my dad too. He would have been so excited about his first grandbaby. And he loved my birthday, the fireworks, the BBQ. Holidays just aren't the same as they used to be unfortunately.

I have been working on a wish list. It can be found here. Most of them are breastfeeding books, I feel the urge to aquire some knowledge. I really want that book "it could happen to you" sounds like entertainment. I need a bit of that these days. :) Now if my supervisor would ever get back so I can go to lunch. I'm huuungrry.

New picture in the fotolog.

I've oddly gotten hooked to Charmed lately.

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Work is extremely boring right now. I've been sitting here fora good two hours doing nothing. Well I've been surfing blogs which is fun but I want time to fly and not creep. Maybe after 12 I'll ask to go home, since that is considered a full day (leaving before four hours or half of your shift is an occurence). I've been working on the baby blankets and m mom was right (something you'll not hear me say often), it has calmed me down a bit. So I'm going to start baby blankets for those I like. :) I just need to sew up the open end of mine and put the yarn ties in it. I need a steel yarn needle though. I started another one and have it completely sewed, it just needs yarn ties, I'll do that tonight. It is for Erich's friend Jason and his wife Krista. I hope it will be a sort of peace offering. She is due in November and HATES me. I won't go into but she hates me for reasons that are none of her business and pertain to my dating Erich and such before we were married. Anyways maybe this peace offering will build a bridge so that Erich and Jason can hang out more regularly. And our kids will be close in age so it would be nice to have playdates and such.

I also need to start Melissa's blanket. She is due any day now with a c-section scheduled on July 18. She is a girl from work and I haven't had the cash to buy her an appropriate gift. I think this will be more personable.

I also want to make blankets for Shana and Rachel. I obviously need to start Rachels next. I'll email her after a bit to see if she has color preferences and such. :) I have a while for Shana's. ;)

I was given a great book but for the love of God I can't remember the name. It's fairly easy reading and goes pretty fast. I think Dawn would enjoy it immensely. I need to email her the name of it.

By the way, my grandmother came over and finally got the old model 15 singer sewing machine to work. She sat right down and said she had one just like that when she was a kid. Showed me the mechanics of that particular bobbin and got it working. Amazing. She said she has been sewing since age 4!

Bargain for that triple bypass surgery.

The next Lorraina Bobbitt?

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Trolling:: stroll
   
2. Profile :: murder
   
3. Tin:: man
   
4. Phenom:: snake?
   
5. Mug shot:: license
   
6. Tubular:: dude
   
7. Six Flags:: ohio
   
8. Pickup:: truck
   
9. Auction:: it
   
10. Astonishing:: times
    

By the way there are new pictures up on my fotolog of Erich and myself, from yesterday and today.

I'm not complaining but... Sleep doesn't seem refreshing anymore. **sigh** I wake up with aching bones, my boobs so sore they hurt just by the change in gravity, and my bladder so sore from being filled up once again. I wake about every 2 hours to go to the batheroom at night. It was bad in the beginning but then got better and now is back to being bad again. Really bad, worse than ever. Poor Erich was waking up everytime I got up for a few days there but him and the dogs have learned to sleep through it. Friday night I was so tired that it must have not woken me up for a while so when I did wake up and realize that I had to go to the batheroom I couldn't even stand up straight. I had to walk stooped over. I guess that little baby is making himself more room in there or something. Sheesh. And if anybody has any suggestions... what can I do for itchy nipples. Really really itchy nipples. I almost feel like walking around in the world just scratching myself, it's getting harder to be "discrete" about it!

This morning though I layed in bed till about twenty minutes ago. I fell in and out of sleep and it seemed to help the nausea. I think the fatigue has been making it a bit worse this past week. I figure I better learn to enjoy sleeping in because in about 6 and 1/2 months it will be a thing of the past. I can' t wait! :) Now back to my sewing...

My mom gave me this sewing machine (remember that I'm Betty Crocker) because I really wanted one. It came from a friend of hers and it is in a sewing cabinet (a very nice oak one) and to heavy and such to lug to her new house besides that my stepdad bought her one of those really really cool new ones with all the neatest stuff on it (and she doesn't use it! ha! go figure!). She said she thought it worked but I haven't had the time to sit down and play with it. She gave me some fabric the other day for me to make a baby blanket. The back side fabric is yellow and the front is moons and stars (yellow and blue). She said I could make a quilt and that it might help me calm down a bit since these have been a rough few weeks. (I also need to make drapes eventually for the nursery but also recover and drape box in the living room and make pillows for the couch and for our bed, did I mention that I am also Martha Stewart?) Anyways this model is EXTREMELY old and I can usually thread newer models after tinkering with them for a few minutes but this is a bit more complicated. So I figured I could probably hop online and find something that would help. The model number is 15. That's right folks. It is the 15th Singer model sewing machine. They have over 200 now! They charge $15 manuals but for this particular it is available as a free download. Like yeah you idiot, if you are too cheap to buy a brand new sewing machine, I doubt you'll buy a manual for a very old machine. I just found that very funny. **sigh** Someone please send my brain back to me!

Okay I'm officially nuts. E's mom called to say she saw the u/s picture yada yada yada. Then she said she had been out at rummage sales all morning and that she had bought like a bathtub, a swing, etc etc etc. I think it's great that she is excited and wants to buy us stuff, but I don't want all used stuff. I know that sounds really snobby but this is our first baby. I want new stuff (which the stuff she bought is stuff that people will buy us in showers anyways). I want new stuff now because I know that this won't be our only baby *God willing* and I want it to be nice and new so that it will last a long time. Is that wrong? It's exciting to think of all the new and pretty things. I could probably handle some second hand stuff from people we knew but these are from random strangers. I don't know where it's been and stuff like that. Now I don't mind hand me down clothes if they are stain ridden and so forth just because they are so expensive and are constant recurring needs, ya know? Am I being totally irrational and hormonal?

And on another note, I don't think it's wise to have all the "big" stuff before I get to 12 weeks. It isn't needed yet and I don't want her to jinx me. I don't think that nurseries or registrys or stuff like that need to be done until the late second trimester. My mom brings us small things, little tiny toys or a pair of socks, but mostly just stuff for me like stretchy pants and rasberry lemonade. I just don't want to go overboard. My gut says that this will last and to sit back and relax, I just don't want to do anything to mess it up, ya know?

Okay I've completely lost my mind probably and you all will think that I'm some silly hormonal pregnant woman sitting at the computer crying my eyes out but this is what goes through my mind. You guys seem to be my only friends right now. Most of my friends are finishing up college and my best friend Phoebe is touring the country speaking at bible camps. I miss her. I need a friend.

Why must nausea wake me up every morning?

I'm not feeling to terrific at all. I don't know if it was something I ate or if it is all the book rearranging or what, but I'm going to barf (again) . Bleh. Maybe I should go home.

"I still hurt real bad with it " and "they never told me nothing"

ROTFLMAO

A hero among all college students.